2007 Recap

19 December 2007

Yesterday, I came across my sister's friendster page.. and she listed down all the changes that happened to her since the start of 2007. Scanning through it....well, it's kinda weird when you realized that so much can happen in such a short time....

For example....

In January 2007, I was an irregular first year student in _______ University.... my attention was all about getting a decent grade in my Trigo class. eeekk! I hate that subject.

Came February, I became interested in joining the university's dance company, me and two fellow classmates were planning on joining next semester... it would be hella fun. We were like... "OMG, we have to practice dancing in stilletos like Luningning." (note: Luningning - the dancer in Wowowee.)

March, almost the end of the second sem, I was on the edge. I was busy doing projects and studying for trigo... yet again. ^_^

April -- Clearance and release of classcards. I was fuming when I got my FIRST EVER 2.0 in my english class! rawwrrr! That was my favorite subject in my entire life (umm, next to science)... how could she do that to me??!!??? *throws the nearest vase* Oh well... life goes on. But don't tell mama.

May 2007, summer class and the beach. Took 12 more units in my current course.. even if I was already having second thoughts on shifting to another department. During this month, I also applied for the University Scholarship.... the only criteria for the said scholarship was to get an average not lower than 1.75 so I was ecstatic! For sure, I'll have 100% discount on my tuition fees. I remember it so well.. me and a couple of friends were yelling in the streets... "Who's the US? YOU are the US!" pointing at each other. "No, no.. YOU are the US!" (US = University Scholar) Then burst out laughing because the three of us were the only ones (from our section) that qualified. It was fun...... until the next day. We were at the Scholarship Office, and the guy rejected my application because i'm a frickin irregular student! whaaaaaaat??!? Yes, I got disqualified just because of that ONE factor. I fought... I did try. He claims that I'm not a regular student cause I don't follow the subjects listed according to the prospectus (cuz I took advanced subjects)... even if I am taking the same amount of units like that of a regular student.

June, Enrolment period! I've persuaded two classmates to join me in shifting to Engineering... ha! We were together for the "evaluation and waiting for the professors" part for almost one week... but when it was time for enrolment... I didn't go through... out of the blue, I texted my bestfriend.."Let's put up a computer shop." We started processing the papers, legal stuff and all. I was running here and there... and yep, lost some pounds in the process. hahaha!

July -- There were minor problems with a few stuff... but by the 9th, Redge Computer was opened. I'll call this the 'dark period'... for this was the time I was always depressed if I really did made the right decision.. I always act on impulse... and it was totally unplanned that I'll put my studies on sabbatical in favor of my new venture. But my family, and especially my bestfriend helped me through it and they were all trying to boost my spirit.

August - found the light in the darkness. Redge Computer was earning.. LOTS! Celebrated the 1st month of Redge, my birthday... and got my TESDA NCII certification! woooohhh!!!

September -- what happened in September? From the looks of it, I never updated my blog on the month of September.... maybe I was totally busy with the shop.. cuz we're open everyday... Monday to Sunday... holidays or non-holidays....

October -- Started blogging for profit.... in the process, I divided my posting time here in Without A Note, in Litaniya ni Tekla, and B1 & B2.

November -- I dunno... Oh yeah.. It's the first time I took a vacation since opening my shop... Redge Computer was closed for 1.5 days... because we had a scheduled EB with fellow bloggers... Rho and Razz! Yup, that's an achievement! haha!

December...... ohh humm... Ohh... work is sooo much easier now... cuz I've got two OJTs in my shop! woot woot! Second, I think I've improved my culinary skills this whole year... yep yep.. I can now cook filipino cuisines without burning them. Hahaha! Now I'm really excited for Christmas, guess who's the chef? *points at self* you got that right! mwahaha! okay, shutting up now..

How my life have changed so fast from being a math-fearing student into a workaholic businesswoman... uhmm.. I have no idea... all I know is that I'm really happy right now in my life. phhew!

Thank you so much 2007 for the great memories!


13 December 2007

Look at me, look what a fool I’ve been
Smiling from the corner, heartbeat never been faster
How I’d wish you’d never look my way,
So you’ll never see how much I stare.
But all the same, I want to see those soulful eyes,
That can see through me and make this heart falter.

Oh, how I hate to see you smile.
Or the way you roll your eyes at me
It’s as if we’re having a conversation,
And still all I do is giggle.

Be calm now, my troubled mind.
Stop thinking and follow your heart.
He’s moving toward me, and my breath is hitching
How do I look, how should I act?
Is my breath fresh enough,
Did I put on my deodorant?

Don’t you know how much it hurts?
To see you smile then walk her way?
Holding hands like couples do?
Watch you whisper in each others ears,
When all I want is to feel your warmth
To be wrapped in your gentle embrace,
Strong and comforting,
Just the way it eases me.

Was it so wrong to love someone like you?
If it is, then let me be wrong forever,
Because I can’t imagine a life without you,
No, I can’t imagine not loving you.

I guess I’ll never learn, and I never want to change
How many times should I tell?
That you would never feel the same,
You and I aren’t meant to be.
Don’t ask me why, just let it be.

“It may hurt, but just a little bit.
At least I’ve saved you from all of it.”
Then you turn and walk away.
Pretend I never existed.

Don’t blame me for my pained eyes,
It’s not even close to the pain I’ve felt.
When you said, “Believe me, it’s not worth it.”

~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~

Just for kicks I thought I should add one word to that last line like, "Believe me, it's not worth it, Pare." dun dun dun dunnnnn... hahaha!

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Birthmonth Game

07 December 2007

Got tagged by Mel

The Instructions:
1. Mention the person who tagged you and create a link back to them.
2. Copy-paste the traits for all the twelve months (see below).
3. Pick your month of birth.
4. Highlight the traits that apply to you.
5. Tag 12 people and let them know by visiting their blogs and leaving a comment for them.
6. Let the person who tagged you know when you’ve done it!

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

~ o ~ o ~ o ~

My birthmonth is AUGUST!

First of all, I admit that I am often VAIN... being a Leo and being born on the month of August.. that's a deadly combination of uber vanity. It's not even a secret that I'm:

Too generous and egoistic. (not sure about the generous part but egoistic for sure)
Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. (Yes!!! I love being the center of attention. Feed my ego, and I'll feed you. lol. )

Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Extraordinary spirit. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. (Not sure with the brave, fearless and leadership part... insecurities gets me everytime, but I do know that I love to dream and being in control.)

Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. (Aaand... these are my bad qualities. I'm too sensitive with criticism especially from people I don't know. Easily Jealous? Check. )

Careful and cautious. Hasty and trusty. (Geee.. wait, doesn't this contradict each other? Anyway.. I'm always careful when it comes to people...which means I'm not trusty. But I am hasty when making decisions.)

Observant. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Learns to relax. (Most of the time I enjoy being on the background, just watching people talk or do whatever. I... don't think I think that quickly. lol.)

Knows how to console others. Loves to joke. Attractive. (errmm.. *clears throat*) Suave and caring. Loves to make friends. Romantic. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Loving and caring. (oh gosh, aren't I quite a catch?) *bats lashes*

Poor resistance against illnesses. (This is the only trait that I have cross out.... never been hospitalized since birth.. never had any operations in my life. hmm.. must be the milk. nyahhahaha!)

Passing this to.. hmm..I'm only tagging two people.. so .. Razz and December-celebrant Mam Rems! yayy!!!

Lakbay Philippines

06 December 2007

Got tagged by Mam Rems.

My Lakbayan grade is D!
How much of the Philippines have you visited?
Find out at Lakbayan!

Created by Eugene Villar.

Passing this to.... newfound friends Gerrycho and Winky!

Team Up!

01 December 2007

ohhh... great news.. i finally have two helpers at my shop... and they've been working for a week now. they have different schedules so only one will be with me at a time.. NEAT! I'm not paying them... cuz they're here as my "interns" or what you call on-the-job trainees.. it's a requirement at their college--they have to spend 400-something hours working outside school... so yeah.. suits well for me. it's not like i can leave work anytime now.. but at least it's easier for me especially when it gets so busy. Hurray!!!

Although I think it's gonna be awhile before "i put my feet up" lol.. cuz right now I'm still training them.. I have to watch them carefully with whatever it is I've asked them to do... make sure everything's still in place... soooo i'm always behind their backs (literally!) and I think they're picking it up quite well. yeahhhh..

I still can't leave my shop to them for more than 5 minutes... i'm being careful. ^_^ but now, i can pee without rushing. hahaha! cuz before, I have to hold it in for hours cuz when it gets crazy i don't have time to even have a break. lol. yeah.. my bladder is more than happy and that makes me happy! XD

the end.

So It Begins...

29 November 2007

Psst! A fellow blogger is getting older...
Send an early greeting at Litaniya ni Tekla.


26 November 2007

Redirecting... to "TESDA Certified" entry...

If loading does not start.. please click here

Hahaha! I'm being lazy.... there ya go.


21 November 2007

I'm really frustrated right now cuz I can't post a sponsored entry in Litaniya.. I've been trying yesterday from early morning till evening... and nothing! and so I tried it again today.... and still NADA! it's really frustrating! come on, I'm just trying to earn some extra cash! geezzz!

Kinda reminds me of what happened the other night at home...

After getting off work... I thought.. 'hey, i'm gonna play DDR cuz I haven't done that since forever.' And it would be a good exercise. Sooo... I took my dance mat from my luggage and turned on PS2 and everything... I picked up the remote... press video..... press video again.... and again... *hits remote* Rah! *press video* shesshh *press harder* *hits remote* *takes out battery* *puts it back again* man! *press video* ahhhh!!! *takes out battery* *get new battery* *press video* *press volume* *waits for something to happen* *press channel* Rahhhh!!! *puts remote sensor near tv* *press video* *hits remote* frickn! Rah! *press video* After wrestling with my remote for almost 10 minutes... I've finally decided to turn off my PS2 and console myself that I'll never EVER be able to play video games again. So I unplugged it... then pressed video from the remote again.. and Tadaaaaaaaaaa!!! it switched to video! *excitedly plugs back PS2 and DDR* *giggles*

So right now.. I'm just gonna calm myself down... and wait... till everything's back to normal again. *waits for divine intervention*

You Got Tagged!

16 November 2007

Ohh!!! I got tagged by Mam Rems… that’s a first. Haha!

THE RULES - List of 8:
* write 8 facts about yourself.
* in the 8 facts, you share 8 things that your readers don’t know about you. at the end, you tag as much other bloggers to keep the fun going. Each blogger must post these rules first.
* each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
* at the end of the post, a blogger needs to choose as much people to get tagged and list their names.
* don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

~ o ~ o ~ o

Hmm… 8 facts people don’t know about me…


*thinks harder*

• I used to be a Pokemon-addict. Gotta Catch them All! I never notice the time when I’m playing that game … I can go for hours without even eating.
• I’ve wanted to be a ramp model when I was younger. *blush*
• Used to be an ALIAS fanatic. That’s why I was so ecstatic when my first job was in a bank. Note: if you know the show, you’ll catch my drift. XD
• Science was my favorite subject in grade school
• I hate vegetables…. I even remove pickles and onion from my burger.
• I never laughed at school from Grade 3 to 5. And if I smile, I don’t show my teeth. Don’t ask… I’m weird like that.
• I love to put ketchup on everything.
• I was a cheerleader in college. 3x consecutive champions! Woo!

I’m passing this game to...hmm..let's see... Tekla and….Rho (cuz I really really want them to update her blog now.) hehe!

Template Problems...

Thank you to everyone who brought into my attention this blog's template problems. I've finally figured it out! woo!!!

Apparently, I've been "riding" with my template provider's bandwidth that's why there are times you can't see my formatting... Soweee, Mr. Designer... ^_*

Anyway, i downloaded every jpgs and css, and uploaded it into my own server. Hopefully, there wouldn't be any more template problems. I almost cried when I thought I lost all the formatting.. not to mention the add-ons I put in here... plus I really like the design. XD Heee!!!

Umm.... is it obvious that I'm stalling here cuz I really don't feel like doing a sponsored post right now. hehe!

I Got The Power! Bloggerwave Power!

14 November 2007

When I first started to blog , I thought I could use it to get my poetry out there…. My artistry (if I have any)… and hide on a pseudo name so no one will ever know the dramatic poster. But later on, I realized I don’t need to hide myself… because I enjoy what I do… and I realized some people appreciate it too.

Meeting other bloggers, I found out that you can also make money by blogging. At first I was hesitant because I wasn’t sure if it’s an online scam or not. After talking to people that I personally know and they did get their money, I was surprised and was tempted to try. What’s there to loose right? All I have to do is write a review for a topic, put my two cents in and voila... there’s the money!

Searching through websites, I found about Bloggerwave. I wasn’t even sure if they’ll approve my blog because I haven’t posted on it that often, but guess what? They approved it and I am so happy about that! And.. shhh.. they’re paying bigger bucks! You don’t even have to get out of your blog-category… because you choose which topics you want to write about. No use in writing reviews that you aren’t even comfortable discussing.

So what better way to share your talent to the world… while earning dollars on the sideline right? Fellow bloggers and friends, allow me to welcome you to my improved and profit-generating blog, powered by Bloggerwave!

When It Falls Apart

11 November 2007

Never wanted to be the jealous freak.
But seems like we are worlds apart.
the things you do, the life you lived in.
Is not for me, and ain't enough I see.

Don't break a tear, don't let it hurt.
I've always wanted you.
and that's the fault I made.

I wanted you to be there for me.
Adore me, and comfort me when it's crazy out.
I thought you didn't that much hold in me,
But it seems the tide was turning,
and i'm left depressing.

not knowing what to do,
when you're not on view.
isn't it what we've always been?
but lately it seems,
we're drifting away.
too far, too soon.
and it's making me this way.

You now have the life you've dreamed,
And exactly the life where I would not fit in.

~ o ~ o ~ o ~

Come on people, show me love. Like it, Hate it? Let me know. ^_^ Thank you!

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My Heart Goes...

07 November 2007

I'm pretty much bored sitting here.... and I don't have any tasks for my sponsored posts in "Litaniya"... so what else is there for me to do?

Of course, another video. woot! hahaha!

This is my own version of 'Evolution of Phil. Dance Craze'.

NOTE: I KNOW. what's up with the jacket and pajamas? ^_*

The Long Overdue Update

19 October 2007

Hmm.. It's been really busy for me these past few days. But finally, with some spare time I thought about reviving this blog. XD Sooo...my apologies. heh! this post is 2 months overdue. ^_^

It's the month of October, marking the end of the semester for college students. But before sembreak, it's project completion time...woohoo! Stressful projects, thank goodness for technology... now everybody's typing & printing their school papers, researches, thesis, having their documentaries done, computer students are doing their program or websites and that means BIG PROFITS for Redge Computer! mwahahaha! thank you very much teachers and professors!!! I love you all! lol.

So basically everybody's harassed, and that includes me... finally finished with 3 video editing jobs and 7 websites woot! 3 of those sites i had to design within a 24 hour period. talk about rushing it. here are the products:

Aside from work, I've finally decided to join "blogging to profit." So for a short while, I'll be posting now and then to Bstfrnd's Blog. Please check out our first entry.. that up to now was still not approved yet. T_T

That's it for now, I'll be updating in a bit.

My Fave Month August!!!

07 August 2007

It's been almost a month since my computer shop - REDGE COMPUTER SOLUTIONS --opened up. And I'm really happy with the turn-out. Can you believe we're getting profits already? Yeah!!! not much but still... I was expecting that income wouldn't even be enough for the utilities. I'm really really positively GRATEFUL to everyone and anyone who helped out.. and supported me.

For the update... Let's see...

We had the Shop's Blessing last June 10, 2007-- also considered the Grand Opening although we opened Monday. It's been slow for days... and it got me worried. (Worried is too mild of a word actually to describe what i've felt.) That maybe I'm doing something wrong. Maybe my customers didn't like my service. Was I nice enough? was the internet connection fast? are they comfortable? was my location hidden from the public? and all the other anxiety questions. fortunately, it's been stable now.. although slow on weekdays... we now have regular customers (mga suki!) ... I know it's gonna be fine.

I TRY to wake up everyday Monday-Saturday at 6am. Eat breakfast, shower, cook meal for my lunch (baon), open up my shop before 7:30am, clean up the shop, and stay at work till 7pm. Go Home. Repeat cycle.

If it's Sunday, I can stay in bed til 9am. I open up at 10am till 4pm. But sometimes it really depends if there's any customers. I either have to open up earlier or stay later.

Shop Update Ends.

THE RAT -- WHAT ABOUT THE RAT BSTFRND??? Are you referring to the big rat running around in the dining area of Jollibee Batangas? ^_^

I'll try to update more often. Sorry!!!

To make it up to all of you... Here's an energizer. I got bored one night and decided to edit my old videos. Ha!

My birthday is coming up!!! double WOOT! ^_^

If you want to see pictures from Redge Computer Solutions - from deliveries to blessing - please visit Bstfrnd's Blog.

Thanks for reading!!!

July! Oh July!

03 July 2007

Sooo.. it's been a long while. heh! almost a month I think. I know, i know.. i said i'm gonna keep this blog updated from time to time. I lied. mwahaha!

before I start with the updates... I want to thank everyone who left comments and well wishes in this new venture i'm getting into. don't worry, i definitely want to get my bachelor's degree soon. maybe even online or night classes. but somehow in the back of my mind, i like the Bill Gates kind of background. heh!

July-- a month after I "abruptly" or maybe "shocked" everyone around me when I decided to pursue a computer shop than my studies. Here are quick summaries of what happened last June:

NOTE: this would be long so you better have enough time in your hands to read it!

6/18/2007 - the search is over! finally found the place to put up my computer shop.

6/20/2007 - went to Meralco and begudgingly PAID the debts of the previous electrical user. Yes, I will deduct it from rent. Also got Barangay Clearance for my shop.

6/22/2007 - went to Lipa for DTI application. IT Squad is unavailable.. Grrr!!! I and T, get it? Inkee-Tekla? heh! but we couldn't use it. I settled for "Redge _______ ________." still cool. cuz my name is on it. ^_*

6/25/2007 - fire extinguisher was finally delivered. Bought materials for the tables. hired some people to make 3 tables plus divider and a signboard. also bought linoleum for my place.. and carried this heavy roll up to the 2nd floor.. with my mom. good thing it's only 13 meters heavy. MOST exhausting day ever! Also went to Zoning Dept.

6/26/2007 - Finally got Mayor's Permit, after going back to Zoning, Fire, Health and ENRO dept. Thanks to bestfriend's sisters working over there! it was so much easier without old ladies terrorizing me. heh!

6/27/2007 - Went to Lipa with bestfriend, upon realizing that BIR won't give me a TIN without my original birth certificate and my DTI. So after 3 hours (thank goodness!) of waiting in NSO, I finally got my birth cert. Also bought some books for record-keeping, part of the requirements.

6/28/2007 - Bought paint and stuff for my tables. i have decided that the tables should be painted... guess what, PINK! Went back to BIR, finally got my TIN! and yea, they didn't asked for my original birth certificate. how funny is that!?? I'M PEACHY! paid BIR for sole proprietorship fee and OR booklets. Finally got all requirements ready for MERALCO. Paid deposit, will get my electricity in 2-5 days. Hopefully just two!

6/29/2007 - Mom and I bought curtains. Of course, it's PINK! Then realized there's no curtain holders on the place. heh! amazingly funny. Former owner pulled out their aircon from the shop the previous day. And they also took the aircon housing, you know... the railings! Cuz it's theirs. and I'm left with a big hole on my shop. Linoleum was setup, thanks to bestfriend Tekla and Sir Rey. Yes, we carried the big roll from our apartment (2nd flr) to another building towards the 3rd floor. whooo!!! i'm losing weight from the exertion.

6/30/2007 - Bought ready-made table and drawer for myself....plus aircon from SM. Later that afternoon, the pink tables were delivered. Met up with a welder for my aircon housing. He said he'll be back monday to install it. yeah right! Oh! finally got our electricity! thanks to another one contacts of bestfriend in MERALCO. heh! I swear that woman should run as governor. ^_^ Also learned that.. okay breathe.... the room beside MY rented place taps its electricity on mine! wow! how cruel is that? but nope, no one's renting that other place.. but that's just weird. immediately asked for the tap to be disconnected.

7/02/2007 - my personal table and drawer were delivered. I tried to move it around the place by myself.. leaving a LOT of holes in my brand new linoleum. didn't leave house cuz i waited for that welder to install my housing. he texted later that day that he couldn't come in, he'll be installing it TOMORROW.

Back to present.. Tuesday!

7/03/2007 - Hah! i got tired all over again from telling all those stuff. anyway.. so now i'm just waiting for my BIR documents, the delivery of my aircon, computers, and STILL waiting for that WELDER to install my housing. it's been two days.. and he's making all the lame excuses to not install it. Grr... he totally ruined my day! he keeps on saying he'll come in soon.. then after hours later of waiting for him, he'll make another excuse. I swear... PEOPLE, don't hire anyone named Arnold. he takes the downpayment... but doesn't have the professionalism to act out his promises. if you can read this Arnold, I hate you right now.

I guess my ranting ends with Arnold. that's it folks!

The Heat of June

09 June 2007

Wow.. it's June already.. it's been awhile I guess... but I'm back. What can I say, these past few days have kept me busy with school stuff... or NOT!

After Summer passed and I realized I once again got a 2.0 grade from an annoying instructor, I decided to shift to a different course. Alright, maybe I'm bitter at that instructor and some others but my decision wasn't entirely on what they did. Or maybe yes. I expected so much from them... from the faculty, from the school, even from the classmates and other things... and it ended up with me being frustrated. Knowing there's nothing I can do I thought shifting would be the best option, I'll have quality education and I'll get a grade that I truly deserved. I turned my attention to Engineering. Yep, heard that right! So after a few days and after persuading some classmates of mine to do the same, I was on my way. I prepared clearance, grades, papers for shifters, etc. After waiting a day and a half at school to get my subjects evaluated, I realized I have 23 units to take. And almost half of it, I thought was supposed to be credited but they didn't. Some are a few units short and some description doesn't EXACTLY match. So I have to retake every single math, physics and physical education. Right at the very basic. Gah! Not to mention I'm back to first year! *sigh* Nothing wrong there. Except...

I decided to put up my own business at the same time. Like.. RIGHT NOW. So in my head, I can do this both right? Since I'm going to be an irregular student since I'm a shifter... I can juggle my studies AND business just like that. Easy for me to formulate. But realization hits me. I'm putting my very first business venture and I have to be there 100%. I know it's crazy..I AM CRAZY... who do I expect to manage it for me when I'm not there? well.. no one. silly me. Don't ask me now... I guess I wasn't thinking or maybe I'm high when I didn't consider it. Who will watch over my business when I'm at school, wrecking nerves on math? Oh sure, I'll just hire an employee. I'm like giving a complete stranger my pot of gold. I'm gonna start a business when I can't even focus entirely on it. GAH! however you look at it, it's suicide! I guess it was safer if I just dug a hole and bury my money on it.

now comes the confusion....I have to choose: should I continue my studies or pursue my business? Heck, I guess this is how it feels when you're in love with two guys and you can't let go of either one of them. hahaha! XD goshhh... my head hurts just thinking about it.. plus the sleepless nights and countless mornings when I just wake up and ask myself... which one, which one?

After considering everything.. and only getting a bigger headache...

I woke up one day and thought of.... QUITTING school. yes... goodbye engineering. As much as I hate it... considering all the times I've dreamed of walking towards the stage at my graduation day.... being called engineer five years from now.... joining the university's dance company... doing my OJT in Japan... designing AI gadgets.... and a lot others... I have to let go of it.

I have been dreaming of having my own business.... and it was waaaaaayy back before I decided to pursue a Bachelor's Degree. I want to prove that I am serious on this new venture and I want to manage it full-time.

I still want to finish my studies... in the future.

But this time... I'll concentrate first on my computer shop. Right now, I'm currently busy with business stuff papers and permits whatever. Thank Goodness my bestfriend is always there to help me. I haven't told my family yet... just my Mom. She's been supportive so far... and I hope it stays that way.

someone please tell me I'm doing this right....

Because I'm Numb

24 May 2007

I'm feeling crappy tonight so don't read this entry if you don't like angst.

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I don't know how you could make me feel this way,
It's strange how you could get through me,
The way you twist the dagger through this heart,
And still you'd be the one crying in the dark.

I never asked to be the victim of this plot.
Yet you gave me the role,
And then you take it back.
Switch it around, let me be the cause.
I'll be the monster in your life,
You'd be the angel in mine.

I don't know what I should feel.
I should hate you now,
But still I'm here.
I could hate you for all the things we've said,
But I could hate you now,
And still be by your side when this day ends.

I shouldn't worry about you,
Or wonder if you miss me too.
I shouldn't feel anything for you,
Not even a single emotion,
Not one close.

You have messed with my head,
I want to hate you so bad,
Yet all I could do is hate myself.
I want to rip this heart,
I want to leave this brain.
I don't want any piece of me,
For all of it is part of you.

In this night, sanity don't leave me.
I have come to ask for you,
But you never heard my plea.

It wouldn't matter if these tears shed,
It wouldn't help if I break into pieces.
Still you wouldn't hear me cry,
Still you couldn't make it right.

There's so many things I wish I could say,
Yet so many more things that are better left unsaid.
I shouldn't feel this pain for you,
For when tomorrow breaks,
there'd be nothing else left.
There'd be no more you and me to hate.
There would be no more us, no more we.

I can hear all the words you've said,
But then I'll pretend that I never comprehend.
You'll go on with your life,
thinking I've never cared.
And I'll keep on moving,
Denying all the hurt.

Don't look back now on me,
For I am afraid to see those eyes with pity.
I never wanted any of your sympathy.

Once this emotions get the best of me,
Don't even believe a word I say.
Don't think I couldn't go on.

Just when I though I am numb enough to feel the pain,
A single tear escapes and mocks my state.
How dare you little thing to rock my world,
Telling me I'm vulnerable,
Telling me that I could still get hurt.

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Latest Quest

22 May 2007

A few days ago I've decided to cook another filipino dish for my mom. Apparently, since that day I cooked that Adobo I was bitten by the cooking-bug. So I was back at the SM grocery store contemplating on what dish I should do next. I have chicken on my mind... like I always do when my BFF suggested "Caldereta." I have never ever done that dish in my life ever! I mean with Adobo, Sinigang and Pineapple Chicken, I have at least watched some relatives or friends when they're cooking. But Caldereta??? It was totally new to me. So since both me and my bestfriend don't really know how to cook.. we have to ask some older people in the place as to the ingredients and all that. As soon as I got home... I instantly googled the recipe and was surprise that the pictures looked like Afritada or Mechado... cuz it has tomato paste on it. I didn't know that there should be tomato sauce.. h3ck, I didn't even know you put liver spread on it. So I put off the cooking til the next day since I didn't have the ingredients. After a quick grocery stop... and a couple of hours later....well...well.... here's the finished product.

Even I was surprised that it tasted like a real Caldereta.... cuz REALLY it looks like Afritada to me. ^_^ But oh well... what a better way to end dinner with a little bit of this... courtesy of bestfriend. My fave Indian Mango... Yum!!!

And so... there ends my little "chef" moment. I'm out of budget now so I have to wait til next month for my next conquest... til next time!!! I'm getting hungry just by looking at the pictures. Gotta Go and eat, eat, eat!

Happy Bestfriend-sary!

19 May 2007

Isn't it sweet, isn't it grand?
After all these times,
we're still struggling through hand-in-hand.

Couldn't get any better,
Sharing what we now have
This life couldn't be brighter,
Once your eyes speak out your smile

Many times I've thought of it,
How much I've never deserved all this
How much you make me feel,
Just to know you're always there.

~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o

I thought I'd write something profound and heart-warming for my bestfriend... hmm.. Forget it! I'll just write something.... still dedicated to my "bestfriend forever" Mwahaha! hope you'll like it.

~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o

Poem Removed. If you want to read my tagalog entry.
Please click HERE.

~ o ~ o ~ o ~

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Bio Sketch

17 May 2007

So... 5 days... I'm breaking records and surprising myself. Although there is nothing new with me right now... (except for exams) I have an idea on how I'll maintain this site.. but that's in the future... like.. probably months from now. BUT... without further ramblings... I present another one of my works. This is my attempt at creating somebody's biography.

Guess who's my subject?!?!?

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Somebody was calling my name and as I stirred on my bed, I heard that same voice again. I grunted, not knowing how to respond. It was too early to process such things anyway. Then the sound got louder, “What time is your class?” I finally recognized the voice of my mama. Oftentimes I get annoyed when I’m disturbed of my sleep. But I know she mean well, just like she always does.

I was five when dad left home to work abroad. All seven of us siblings were left under our mom’s care. We didn’t have much in life, even my dad’s plane ticket was an additional debt. But my mom has her own way of making it better for all of us. She became a dealer of different companies, some are for beauty products and then there’s another for kitchenware. Sometimes it helps but oftentimes it’s never enough. So she would sell handicrafts, make accessories like hair clips or headbands, knit tablecloths, and pack peanuts or chocolate balls and sell it for a peso each. Of all the people I’ve known, my mom is definitely one with the strongest personality. If you happen to meet her, you will never forget about her.

(writer's note: I omitted personal stuff here)...University, and that is also where she met her future husband. She was 26 when she married my dad. We used to have a small store where the family earns a living. But after a tragic fire tore it down, my dad decided to work in Guam. Ever since then my mom played a very active role in our lives.

In all the schools we’ve attended, I guess Mama was more popular than her children. She was part of the Parents-Teachers Association, and she’s always visible at our school office. If you did something wrong to any one of her children, you’ll have to brace yourself for what you’ve got yourself into. She confronts them all, and she expects us—her children—to act accordingly. Almost all of us siblings are honor students, and even in my young mind I knew that it’s the only thing we can do in order to compensate for all the hardships our mama did for us.

In our hometown, she was also fairly popular. I guess it’s safe to say that she’s friendly. Or rather, she has a great public relations skill that everyone knows about her. She is well-respected even though she’s not a government official. And even if people wanted her to be, she always answers that joining such things only causes headaches. As always, there’s a price to pay for being well-known. Some resentful neighbors would start gossips here and there. But being the resolute that she is, she always fights for what is just and is always ready to defend her family. She’s made enough enemies as much as friends, but it doesn’t get her down. If she can help it, she never lets us see her break down and cry. Once I overheard a conversation she’d had with a friend and she mentioned that she’s “trying to be strong for her children… only for the sake of her children.” Whatever argument she’s been in, she always lets us know. For she wants us to do the same, to let each other be aware of what’s happening and learn to “help each other out…for nobody else will.”

Another fascinating trait about my mama is that she’s also very funny, and silly. Even in the most trying times, she could still find funny things to talk about. Maybe it’s one of those things that balance her out. Why give your enemies the satisfaction of seeing you suffering, if you can let them suffer by merely smiling?

Suddenly I’m pulled out of my dream as I heard the clashing of the pans in the kitchen. I heard that voice again, “…why can’t you get up early and at least help out your mother with the chores before going to school?” I quickly got up and now having second thoughts if I should still get out of my room or lock myself in. I really hate it when this side of her shows up, she can talk for hours and it’s going to be a countdown of all the things I’ve failed to do. I just keep quiet all throughout, and inside my head I’m praying that she’ll get tired soon. Like I have predicted, she calms down anyway after not getting any reactions.

Just like any mothers, mama puts her family first before anything. She is definitely a strict parent but she’s doing it for our own good. What might have happened to us—her 7 “angels”—if she hadn’t been so strict? I can’t even imagine. We may not have the perfect life, but we have our mama to thank for that we have grown up to be who we are today.

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Bring In The Heat

12 May 2007

"Out of the frying pan... and into my skin. Nothing hurts like a boiling oil! Ouch!"

Okay.. it's 9pm.. and I just finished dinner with fam. It's been--I guess--weeks, since my mom came home from the US of A and ever since then, I've become a cook. I don't know where that responsibility came from but it just happened. Suddenly I'm the "Iron Chef" of the fam.. and I enjoy the role... much to my--what's the right word--amazement. Mind you, I've never really cooked a decent filipino cuisine before. Being a college stud, my menu consists only of pancit canton, maggi noodles, tuna, hotdogs or eggs. I can live on that. H3ck, I can even live with just bread alone. As long as it's one of those super-soft-i-want-to-pinch-it-cute Gardenia bread. YUM! Anyway, back to my topic. So there, knowing my background, I didn't really expect that I'd be this eager to cook for my mom. It first started when my mom was about to arrive.. and I wanted to surprise her. So the night before her arrival I cooked the world-famous "Adobo." I used chicken, cuz I LOVE CHICKEN. And it's not like any ordinary adobo... Redge's Style Adobo. It's the sweet kind! My bestfriend even said it tasted like "Humba" or Sugar-Braised Pork--another popular dish. But it tasted GREAT! so fine by me.

Then yesterday I cooked another dish, "Sinigang"--a soup dish with tamarind base--because my younger sis is coming over. I used pork this time... eventhough I REALLY wanted to use chicken. Violent reactions from my mom and bestfriend, made me do it. They said chicken isn't really the best choice for such dish. And after asking a few tips from my BFF, I finally did it! And yes! It tasted like a real "sinigang." Both my sis and mom were quite surprised... "You know how to cook!" they both said. And I just shrugged it off, but I was jumping inside. ^_^

And tonight, my latest quest was "Pininyahang Manok." My mom arrived home and we don't have anything to eat. I was caught up again with the internet so I didn't notice the time. So I quickly grab the chicken from our fridge... didn't know what to do with it. I couldn't fry it cuz it wasn't marinated yet... then I saw a pineapple chunk. And that's where it all started... I quickly search through the internet for the recipe... and after browsing different recipes... I just took what's available in our cupboard and took it from there... and after an hour---I think?!!?--it was all ready. Ha! My finished product:

Take note of that "heart-shaped rice"!!!! YOU HAVE TO acknowledge it! hahaha! I thought it was cute! XD

Once again my mom said... "so you can really cook... maybe you should put up a carinderia." I think my sis was trying to defend me when she said.. "Carinderia lang?." I kept quiet throughout. And so the three of us sat down and ate.

They started complaining that they're eating too much. We ran out of rice so I was forced to eat just a small portion... they said I have to eat. But I just smirked and answered, "I'm happy enough to see you two eating heartily. And knowing that you'll be heavier than me." Then we all broke into laughter.

A New Beginning

08 May 2007

Why start now?

Nobody told me that this is going to be a tedious job... *sigh* So, right now... I'm basically starting my very own blog. The very first one I intend to update. lol. I already have my own template... but having a background in HTML design & stuff, I just can't keep my hands off from the coding.. I HAVE TO customize every little thing... until it suits my taste.

I REALLY have no idea how I'd be able to maintain this. I thought I'd just post my literary works--old and new ones. I know they are not the best ones but I do enjoy writing them... and it'd be nice if people can critique it. BUT.. umm.. who knows.. I might post things about myself... and FOR ONCE will not BE afraid to share it to the world.

Until then... Enjoy your stay... please feel free to leave comments on how I could improve this BLOG.

Mad About Love

04 May 2007

"Chronicles of Love"

This is the first time I would fall on my knee,
This would be the last time I would cry for thee.
I would run up and follow you,
Till you tell me to leave
I would summon all the courage,
To let you know how I feel

Friendship was it? Friendship indeed
Whoever wanted friendship if it’s love you need?

You may have noticed by the way that I stare,
But you will never know that pain that is real.
Everytime I’m near, you try to walk away.
All because of my foolishness,
To let you know how I feel.

I’m not a poet, but a thousand poems I’ll write,
If it would move you to love me

Please don’t hate me,
If I chose to be beside you
I never asked for this feeling,
Somehow I’ve let go

Hush now, my troubled heart and cease the beating
What more can I do, if your heart has been taken?

As lonely now as I may be,
I refuse to ignore that it’s you I need.
And I would swear by the sky and seas,
That I would love thee till you fall for ME

~ o ~ o ~ o ~

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